What am I supposed to do? Please help!?

o hunny i know how you feel. there have been 2 guys in my life that i just did not have the best judgement on and even though logically i knew i was stupid i just could not do wat i know i needed to, which was cut off all communication with them. if u really do want him back your ONLY shot at that is to tell him wat's best for you is to not talk to him and let yourself move on, because ur always gonna want more. but deep down know that that doesnt mean it'll never happen again, in fact u talking to him all the time is giving him reason to not get back together, he needs to miss you and see wat his life is like without you before he'll ever see a reason to be with you again. he prolly still loves you and i really think it could happen again because that's wat happened with my first long term bf, he broke up with me after 3 years and i kept talking to him n talking to him and it wasn't till i forced myself to take him outta my life that less tahn a couple months later he was begging ME back. i'm not saying that will necessarily happen, but it's your only shot. and if it doesnt work at least you wont have him around keeping your feelings for him strong, i promise eventually you'll move on. but remember it's a long life, and who knows wat the future holds. that's wat always got me through those hard times with boys, knowing that just because we're not together today right now, whos to say that 5 years from now we wont be in different places, nothing is set in stone. maybe u could just take advantage of this time to do the things that you couldn't do while u were in a relationship, take a cl in something do things you think would be fun.. enrich your life and then when he or some other guys comes along they'll see how much more you have to offer and they'll want to be apart of your interesting life. seriously after just 2 months of not talking to him cold turkey you'll feel tremendously better, it's like quitting a drug you just gotta take it one day at a time. and although it seems like it's been since september it really hasnt cuz u still talk to the guy. so make the time count i say. i hope this helped but i dont know that it will cuz once again there's nothing anybody could've said to me that could've made the ache in my heart go away, it's just something i had to learn through trying and trying and hurting myself soo much to the point where i just had to do wat was best for me and taht was moving on.